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a difficult decision

May 31st, 2010 (10:34 pm)

I still don't have the answer.

First, it's no.
Then, it's yes.
No yes no yes.

I can't do this...then I tried flipping a coin because I am truly 50/50.
The coin says accept.

But then the other 50% kicked in and my gut says reject.

the in-between question...stalling for time.

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heee hee

July 27th, 2008 (09:31 pm)

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November 22nd, 2007 (09:20 pm)

I realize that I haven't been posting much lately, this could be in part because I don't feel comfortable with writing anymore. That and there's nothing to say. I could complain about my love life or lack thereof, but it's not going to change my situation. Also, given the lack of readership of this blog, it's not like I can make a public declaration that will change anyone's mind. I don't know, I feel the purpose of a blog is to reveal some aspect of yourself to the public, but it's also meant to be a private channel; people should read about your life but keep it as their secret. Is it so weird that I view public blogs this way?

Anyways, to inform you of my life~ Today I purchased a Japanese whitening facial foam wash. I know, I'm ashamed that I'm perpetuating the whole "Anglo-Saxon beauty and milky white skin is supreme" notion, but I did look up this brand, and it did get good reviews.... so I just had to get my hands on it. Not to mention, I bought it not for the whitening benefits but for the whole pore-unclogging purpose that it is also intended for. So far, the results have been minimal; my face is not white nor are my breakouts less visible. Thank you Japanese face wash, I now want my five bucks back...and I hope America never imports this useless product ever again. Then again, I should have tried to much more expensive Shiseido brand; that should DEFINITELY be more effective if price were positively associated with effectiveness

Let's seeeeee. Um, I've been making consultations with friends about their careers. So far, i have prescribed being a teacher to my bestfriend, being a lawyer to my other bestfriend, and being a one-dollar hoe to myself... just kidding. No really, this whole predetermined mindset of "I'm definitely going to be a doctor", "I'm goign to be a businesswoman" is foolish. As I learned in Education 92F, most people end up in careers completely unrelated to their majors. People go through at least two CAREER changes in their lives, so nothing is really set in stone. Just take things as they go, and the rest will fall in place. Look for opportunities, but don't expect for sure you're going to end up in this path. Because once the path changes, you need to expect it or else you fail to adapt and are stuck in a bad position. I dunno, just my two cents

Gah, my ramblings have definitely gotten unstructured. I need to type more, because I feel my writing skills are slowly deteriorating.

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November 6th, 2007 (01:00 pm)

It's funny how much has changed since Sept. 7.

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October 18th, 2007 (09:48 am)

I am just one of the over 6 billion people in this world. As much as I wish I was "special" and "different" from the general population, I am still a part of it. I breathe the air everyone else breathes, I adhere to the social norms and traditions, I interact with the people around me. Yet sometimes, I feel like this loss of individualism, this theory that I am only one out of the 6 billion depresses me. I don't want to think of myself as just a colored marble sitting in a pile with the others, unnoticed and undifferentiated. Because no matter how each marble looks and how idiosyncratic its exterior may be, it is still a part of that pile...and people can't distinguish one marble from all the other individualistic, diverse marbles.

This thought has been troubling and overwhelming. Sometimes, I wish this world was created just for me, but that is a selfish thought. This world was created for the 6 billion people, of which I am a part of.

Then again, sometimes I think my life is too coincidental.. too planned, as if somebody, some higher entity was creating the story of my life. It seems he chooses the people I am surrounded by, he chooses interests and immerses me in them....is it really true? Is there really a Creator of our world?

Haha, I sound like a total nutjob, but just wanted to get my thoughts in before they fade into the mist...

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September 24th, 2007 (09:10 am)

As I moved in yesterday, I felt a surge of excitement for the upcoming school year. And then later on during the day, I wanted to go back home. It's funny how feelings are so temperamental. Whatever though. I think I will go back, since I need to pick up a few items such as my toothpaste, flip flops, and petroleum jelly(I use it as a moisturizer). Once again, I'll probably get shit from the roommates for leaving for home all the time, but really, could you blame me for wanting to brush my teeth? Then again, I could have left my toothpaste intentionally so I can make another round home, but I don't think my roommates would give me that much credit.

Anyway, there's a bunch of thoughts swirling around in my head, and I just thought I'd share a few:
1) Why did my summer end so abruptly? I had no closure with the guy I like. I didn't even get to see him one last time. Should I do something to change that? How exactly would I get this so-called closure?
2)I cannot wait for winter break.
3)I cannot eat the pancakes and omelette combo every time I eat breakfast. I will NOT get fat.
4)When am I supposed to be at the massive activities fair??
5)Should I buy a UCLA reusable mug?
6)Should I go to work today?
7)If the professor posts lecture notes online 2 months beforehand, am I supposed to glance at them during this period? -CUZ I SURE AS HELL DIDN'T and I feel screwed
8)OJ Simpson really dug himself in the hole this time. Robbing sports monguls in Las Vegas and thinking he can get away with it? This just makes me think he killed his ex-wife even more.
9)George Bush is evasive in his press conferences. Wayy too evasive. He's always saying he had not known of certain things, but he's the goddamn president!

Yes, my whirlwind of thoughts. If my thoughts could be visualized, I'd think they'd make a pretty colorful swirl... haha, that totally sounded like I've been smoking something. Anyway, I should really figure out what to do today. And tomorrow. And the day after tomorrow.


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September 9th, 2007 (02:18 pm)

Funny how two weeks ago, nothing was happening...and now, everything's happening. Why does it feel like my summmer has just started?

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September 7th, 2007 (10:31 am)

Summer's end is approaching too fast. Honestly, I am NOT looking forward to going back to school. I feel summer to be much more liberating, and I've accomplished (somewhat of) a decent amount of stuff. I don't know, there's just something so confining about school that disallows me from pursuing the things I want to do...

Anyway, I've been sticking to my experiment with face washes, and for the last 2 weeks so far, I see no beneficial changes with the Neutrogena Cleanser/Mask. In fact, I've actually seen an increase in pimples on my cheek, but then again, this could also be that my stress levels are shooting off the charts.

AHHHHHHHHH, I have so much to do.
Budget hearing on Sept 10.
Pirates thing Sept 15.
Move-in Sept 23.
School Sept. 27.
Meeting the guy of my life somewhere in between.

How am I going to fit this all in before summer ends?

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September 6th, 2007 (08:25 am)

well ann, you've really done it now.
I am dating again.

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August 17th, 2007 (04:12 pm)

Augh, so my facebook home is filled with blah commented on blah blah's picture, saying how cute she and her new boyfriend is.

Why do i feel this way? I'm supposed to be over this. so over this.

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